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The imperfect kind of love
Dec. 3rd, 2008 09:50 pmI was going to make a long winded post about how stupid a large percentage of people on this earth are....instead I realized something big today.
I am very lucky.
Those of you who choose to believe in a "higher power" might say that I'm blessed. Either way, there's something going on outside of my little bubble-world that has me standing [sitting] here on this couch, listening to "A Charlie Brown Christmas", to stubborn to cry, but so grateful for the good people that I have in my life.
I'm learning to be honest with myself --- and I'm learning this lesson more often these days.
I'm also learning to be honest with the people that love me, and that I love in return. While they may be few and far between, it's amazing how easy it is to put others before yourself...when those "others" are people who respect and care about you just as much as you do them. But that's just the thing. If I've got such amazing and wonderful people in my life then what do I have to loose??
It's totally okay to be selfish damnit!
If I don't take good care of myself how in the hell am I going to be a good friend/wife/sister/daughter/pet owner?
Our tree is beautiful. It's not perfect, but I love it's crooked top half --- the way our broken tree topper nests in-between the branches, and the way the bottom left half of the tree sort of smells like oil [because D dropped it in the oil pan that was conveniently left on the garage floor when we unloaded it from the truck].
D told me that we could get a new topper, but I'm sort of attached to the broken star. As for the oil smell, I'm still trying to find some "pine spray"...but we're getting used to it.
Happy Holidays - xoxo
I am very lucky.
Those of you who choose to believe in a "higher power" might say that I'm blessed. Either way, there's something going on outside of my little bubble-world that has me standing [sitting] here on this couch, listening to "A Charlie Brown Christmas", to stubborn to cry, but so grateful for the good people that I have in my life.
I'm learning to be honest with myself --- and I'm learning this lesson more often these days.
I'm also learning to be honest with the people that love me, and that I love in return. While they may be few and far between, it's amazing how easy it is to put others before yourself...when those "others" are people who respect and care about you just as much as you do them. But that's just the thing. If I've got such amazing and wonderful people in my life then what do I have to loose??
It's totally okay to be selfish damnit!
If I don't take good care of myself how in the hell am I going to be a good friend/wife/sister/daughter/pet owner?
Our tree is beautiful. It's not perfect, but I love it's crooked top half --- the way our broken tree topper nests in-between the branches, and the way the bottom left half of the tree sort of smells like oil [because D dropped it in the oil pan that was conveniently left on the garage floor when we unloaded it from the truck].
D told me that we could get a new topper, but I'm sort of attached to the broken star. As for the oil smell, I'm still trying to find some "pine spray"...but we're getting used to it.
Happy Holidays - xoxo
